"Yes..."

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO WALK DOWN THE AISLE?

I don't have any plans of sharing the engagement story happened months ago because... I DON'T KNOW, I JUST DON'T LIKE TO SHARE IT! BUT WTH, HERE IT GOES..

More than anyone, I was surprised, and still am to know that I am engaged. I have the engagement ring, I have the fiance, I have wedding plans. Crazy thoughts, I may add. Marriage is something very sacred, but to tell you honestly, I am not a fan of marriage. I don't know, but I have this fear of getting married. Maybe because I came from a broken family BUT that is another story to tell...

The boyfriend came to the PH for a week to spend some quality time with me since he was living here in DXB. We only had one week to enjoy our times together, physically together, for we will be back on Skype after that 7days! We spent the 7days in Batangas area, with two of our bestest friends, Spye and Vic. We spent 2 days in Kota Keluarga in Laiya, Batangas. Such a beautiful place. I've always loved that beach since 2010! I had a clue that he will propose that night. He kept on asking me on Skype about the size of my ring, and stuff. That morning, I borrowed his phone to look at the photos taken earlier that day. I "accidentally" browsed on his messages, not my kinda thing but I did it anyway. There, I saw his conversation with my best friend, Spye, while he was still in Dubai, about their plans for that night. So yes, I knew that it's going to happen that night. I was excited and furious. I didnt know what to react when he pop the question. hihihi. 

After we had our dinner, we went back to our cabin to rest. It was such a perfect night, except for the celebrities: John Lapus, KBrosas, Pokwang, and Jessie Mendiola. There was a scheduled movie shooting the next day so it was a little awkward knowing that someone is going to propose in front of them!! I was waiting for the moment to come, I was actually rehearsing my answers. haha! Everything was perfectly planned, but due to some idontknow errors they have committed, plans just turned into plans. haha They left the fireworks, they didn't charge the speakers, and all they had were lanterns, candles, party poppers, and the light from our cabin since the place is really dark. My friends asked me to go in the middle, and my boyfriend was no where to be find. They were taking a video asking if I am having fun, if I am happy, and we all laughed and started going crazy until.... My boyfriend came from the cabin, he held my hand and started saying cheesy messages. I honestly cannot remember a word, but thank you for blahblahblah. hahaha :)) From that moment, I knew that he will going to pop the question. I was nervous. WHO WOULDNT BE NERVOUS?!! Down on his bended knees, he handed me the ring and said, "marry me." No, it wasn't a question! hahaha. or did he ask, "will you marry me?" hahaha I am not sure!!!! BUT I do remember saying, "yes, oo syempre!" hahaha. :))) I never felt so sure! I had two failed relationships, both lasted more than 2 years, the last one was 4years and a half. With this man, I'm with him for a year, but known him since I was 13 years old. So how could you say NO to a man you knew all your life?!

So there, I am engaged, but still has no definite date of marriage. I am happy now with the fiance, and taking things slow. We are enjoying every single day of being together.

Lame story telling, but I will edit this as soon as I have time. My boss is here, so ttfn! hihihi.. 

As random as it can be,
blairyrandom <3

IRONIC.

“Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you.” I could not agree more on Alanis Morissete on this. Life indeed has a funny way of sneaking up, the funniest way, I must say. Yes, Ironic is my October jam, if you know what I mean. It’s on repeat since this morning, and as I go on, I will explain how ironic my life has become since October last year.

I have shared the scam story a couple of times already, so I won’t tell it again. Nope, I won’t put the link here as well. If you want to know about it, might as well look for it on my previous posts—haha. I am just so tired of telling it over and over again, maybe if it ended, then I’ll be glad to share it again.

So here’s the thing.. I want to share how ironic my life has become. You see, I’ve always wanted to be a lawyer—this has been my one and only dream since I was in highschool. I went up stage, got my college diploma, and thought I was ready for law school, but nope… I’ve started to work to support my needs (and wants) and decided to quit after almost 2 years, and started law school. I’ve never been so dedicated until I entered law school. Until one day, a friend approached me for help, and yes, of course I did help her. Only to find out that she just wanted a million bucks, and then pooooof.. She’s gone now, yes with the million bucks that I gave her (from me and my friends’ hard work) *insert the scam story here* soryy can’t help it. Isn’t it super ironic that I’m starting to build my path to legal profession, and here comes some legal problem…. A LITTLE TOO IRONIC, DON’T YOU THINK?

I was just starting to build my rainbow towards my path of gold, and then this? A lot may think that I’m one of the strongest disciples of God, for I am still here, alive! Well, I’ve tried killing myself, actually. I’m not as strong as other people think. I am one of the weakest… I guess???!!! Haaay..

It’s been a year now, and I still got no clue on how to give back every penny that was robbed by my friend (well, ex-friend) Don’t you think it’s a little unfair that I’m the one suffering when I didn’t spend a single cent on that money? Haay. I thought so too, but I have to be responsible on this.. I gave my relatives and my friends my word—that this one’s legit! UGH! F! Big time! L

… I just want to live a happy life! I want to move on.. I want to…… just be happy, that’s all!!

 

I don’t know what else to say, and how to end this.. sorry,

blairyrandom

IN A RELATIONSHIP..

I still don’t know what to feel. “Happy” is just a plain word to describe my emotions right now. I fell in love with this guy 7 days ago, so again I will ask… IS IT TOO SOON? I don’t know but I always talk to myself every night and explain it like this…

Self, you have given chances to other men out there, but you didn’t feel the same happiness that you are feeling when you gave this guy the SAME chance you gave them. Why would you think that it happened too soon? You have known the man for almost 9 years now. He’s not a total stranger. Fate worked in your ways. You have always been so patient with love, and you never look for it. Instead, you let love find you. Destiny wants you to be happy, so it gave you your today. Enjoy every today, who cares what will happen tomorrow…

I am still scared of being committed to someone. I just don’t know if I can still fulfil the duties of a good, if not the best, girlfriend. I haven’t been in a relationship for years, and suddenly this.. this will happen. No regrets, anyway. I’m happy with my decision, and I guess it’s about time. Funny that I just changed my relationship status on facebook, from single to in a relationship. Yep, that, in itself, confirms everything.

Why would I even complicate my life? I love him, and I believe he feels the same, so what’s the reason of not committing, anyway? Uhh. Ignore me, I’m just convincing myself, yes up until now, that it is okay to commit. No harm done, self. You’ll be fine. You’ve done it with two men, both ran for years, why can’t you make it now?

I’m just so overwhelm with love right now. Would you believe, I’m posting almost everyday, sharing my experiences with this guy, over and over? I cannot believe it either. I’m taking my chances with him. If I get hurt in the long run, at least it will just prove me that I have loved. I just have to learn how to trust men again.. AND I TRUST HIM… Oh good heavens, I’m saying “I love you” and “I love you too” more than ever! This better work!!

The only reason why I’m always posting stuff like this on my Tumblr is because I know that he’s reading it. So, yes, it’s my own way of putting pressure on him! LOL joke. (I only put this part just to say.. Hi babe! I know you’re reading this! Hahaha 😝)

NOW, HOW TO END THIS? I’m in a relationship.💕

 

with love,

BLAIRYRANDOM

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO FALL IN LOVE?

To begin with, I used to ask myself if I’m really in love, or am I just happy? I have posted on my blogspot account why I am too scared to fall in love.. Well, technically, I am not afraid to fall in love, I have always been in love with the thought of being in love, and with fairytale. I believe that somewhere out there, a knight in a white horse will just grab me from this dark reality and live a happy ever after life with me. What I am really scared of, well not the witch –if you say so, but the PAIN from falling in love and being left alone in the middle of the happy ever after. Makes sense? I know, I know.. People always say that you’re not really  in love if you’re not ready to get hurt. I mean, in reality… LOVE COMES WITH PAIN! They always come in pair. And that’s what I am really scared of… The pain that love may have caused me. I am so weak when it comes to emotional pain.

I have been in love twice in my life. They became my boyfriends. YES, I suffered from extreme pain… That’s why I am too scared of being committed with someone, and being madly in love. When I love, I looooove. The love at its extreme meaning, and finest sense, that is how I love. Well, at least before… I don’t know now. Now, do I make sense here? From justifying why I am afraid of being so in love and of being committed with someone?

But who would have thought.. After three long years of avoiding that love and pain, which I said are always partners, Cupid did his thing and struck me using his bow and arrow—yes, even if it’s not February, yet. After years of waiting, I can really say that I AM IN LOVE! I usually ask myself if what I am feeling is love, and everytime I ask myself, I always get NO as an answer… Not this time! Before I told him that I love him, something happened that really made me realize that THIS, what I am feeling, is LOVE. I thought that this is TOO SOON, but I’d rather put it this way.. WHAT IF THAT TOO SOON IS TOO LATE? The last thing I want to happen is to lose him. So before that TOO SOON became TOO LATE, I told him I love him. That leads me with my title, WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO FALL IN LOVE? My answer is.. THERE IS NO RIGHT TIME. LOVE ALWAYS COMES AS A SURPRISE. The only question that you need to ask to know if you’re in love is… DO YOU FEEL THAT IT’S TOO SOON TO FALL IN LOVE? (ANSWER) If you said YES, then what will you do tomorrow if something happens to the one you love? Regret? Then, that TOO SOON should not be considered. If you won’t regret a thing if something happened to him/her, then you’re not in love. On the other hand, if you answered NO, then we don’t have to argue anymore.😄

I would love to share our story, but we are just starting to create memories, so there are still tons of mem’ries out there that I have yet to collect. Maybe few months from now, I could blog about us. After all, we are not yet official couple.

NOT OFFICIAL? Yes, we are not yet there. Sad, I know, but things are just so complicated on my part. Yes, we have that term of endearment, we say “I love you” and “I love you too” to each other, and we talk everyday, so what’s this? I really don’t know. As much as I want to say that this is US, I’d rather say that this is HIM AND ME. Unfair? I guess it’s somehow unfair on his part, but I don’t know.. this is me.. Just the thought of entrusting my happiness to a person scares me. What if I let him be in-charge with my happiness, and then he decided to leave me? I’ll be stuck and get lost. I don’t want that to happen. OR MAYBE IT’S THE DISTANCE? ‘cause you know, we’re more than 4,000 miles apart. Maybe I’m scared that when he’s here, everything will change, and I’ll end up wishing that he’s in my monitor again. I DON’T KNOW. Now, I know I’m not making any sense here. SORRY.

I know. I know. LOVE IS ALL ABOUT TAKING RISKS, but I am not totally ready to entrust everything to him. I’d like to be in-charge of my emotions. This decision of not committing with him doesn’t mean that I don’t love him that much. I love him so much, that I am too scared to lose him. I want to be sure that what we have will last for a lifetime. I want to live every tomorrow with him. I want to spend the rest of eternity with him. It may sound too soon for these, but he made me realize that in love, there is no too soon, and I don’t want to end up saying that it is too late..

I love him. I am giving him an authority to hurt me, but I am trusting him no to. He’s worth the wait, and I believe, will be worth every tear, and every pain, in the future.

LOVE JUST SURPRISED ME. BELIEVE ME, FRIENDS, IT WILL SURPRISE YOU TOO. MAYBE IT’S LOVE KNOCKING ON YOUR DOOR RIGHT NOW.. GOOD LUCK!💕

Cupid Just Struck,
blairyrandom

FOODIE: SUGAR AND BLOOMS

Have you ever had those days of craving for a good red velvet cupcake? Have you ever had those rants of being so irritated because you cannot find a good cuppie in the province? Well, you don't have to deal with those bad days anymore!! Batangas now has a place of heavenly cuppies!!

I am not a professional food blogger. I am just a skinny lady with a huge appetite, and my friends can testify that I am reliable when it comes to what can make your tummy happy. Let me share with you my Sugar and Blooms (SAB) experience/s...

Since I have decided to stay in Batangas, I've been craving for cupcakes that I'm used on eating when I was staying in Makati. One day, one of my friends posted a photo of red velvet cupcakes with a caption "Finally arrived in Lipa!" I posted a comment asking where she got 'em, and she replied that it's near La Salle Lipa. I was in cloud 9 when I figured that it's near my school!! The next day, I asked my blockmates to go there and try their cuppies. Since then, we always make it a point to visit SAB everyday, before class.

This post is to say thank you to Sugar and Blooms for making my happy tummy, almost everyday of my life. SAB is heaven for a cuppie lover like me!!

Blue Velvet Cupcakes

I used to love Red Velvet, but when I tasted this.. Oh! FOOD PORN! I loved it!! This is my new fave cuppy!!! BLUE VELVET!

Pasta Overload

 Upper left: The famous lasagna! They have the BEST lasagna!! For Php 80.00, it comes with a glass of iced tea! Yumm. ;  Upper right: I think that is the chicken alfredo pasta (sorry, lame blogger haha) it was ordered by my friend, and it's also good. ; Bottom photo: Baked Ziti with white sauce. They are not serving this yet, but yummyyyy!!! My new fave. They gave us a free taste of their newest offering- A MUST TRY!! I think they will serve this tomorrow, July 22, 2013.

with my law school loves enjoying SAB

 Always a good SAB experience with these people!!

Sugar and Blooms

So guys, please visit Sugar and Blooms and have a happy tummy!!!

visit their page: https://www.facebook.com/pages/Sugar-and-Blooms/157120574357093

Sugar and Blooms is located at Mataas na Lupa, Lipa City. (Near De La Salle Lipa)

A cuppy lover,
Steffany Blair <3

TO THE WORLD'S GREATEST FRIENDS

Since giving gifts is not really my thing, and spending is not really my common for me (haha) I thought of sparing a space on my personal blog for my bestest friends who are turning a year older this month, July. One yesterday, 20th, and the other on 29th.

My family knows how thankful I am because God blessed me with these two amaziiing friends. Vic, whom I call my bbf (boy bestfriend) has always been my boyfriend for the past 10 years. Vic has always been my partner with everything, and even though we had fights before, we made sure that we patch things up, and settle it like grown-ups. Spye, on the other hand, has always been the ultimate best friend. Spye is the epitome of the word, BEST FRIEND. She has always been there for Vic and me. She's always there to listen and defend me against my frienemies. There are nothing, but good words to describe these two. They are equally amazing, and I love them dearly.

To Spye and Vic,
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOTH OF YOU. I MAY NOT BE THE PERFECT FRIEND, BUT YOU KNOW THAT I'M ALWAYS HERE AND YOU CAN NEVER GET RID OF ME. hahahha :)))) THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, FROM SMALL THINGS TO HUGE ONES, THANK YOU THANK YOU, ESPECIALLY FOR ACCEPTING ME FOR WHO I AM. I LOVE YOU BOTH!!

TRIO

with love,
Steffany Blair <3

Is this LOVE?

This is one of those random blog posts that I did just because I have nobody to talk to at this hour.

Have you ever experienced being in love with a person, yet you don't want to admit that what you're feeling is love? Well, that is what's happening to me now. I think Cupid just struck me, and love has got me, again.. I don't like to admit that I am in love for I believe that it is too soon to label this as love.. Maybe I'm just too happy and overwhelm with this guy's presence, but.. I really don't know!!!

Does love have to wait for years to confirm that it is indeed LOVE?

Now I leave this post with a question...

WHEN IS TOO SOON? WHAT IF IT'S TOO LATE?

Confused as shizz,
Steffany  Blair