MY POT OF GOLD.

That "ATTY." is my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

In order to get that, I got to put up with the rain.

 

 

I don't know about the other law students, but I'm pretty sure that I'm so exhausted right now, to think that I'm just half way on celebrating anniversary with this. I had thoughts of quitting, especially when I've experienced a lot of bullcraps when I was just starting. The only thing that is making me want to stay is my family. They have invested 6 months for my post-grad studies, and then what? I'll quit and disappoint them? I won't! Yes, I know, this has always been my dream, but.. I don't know. I cannot explain. It's just that... it's so hard to be in this world, or maybe I'm still adjusting? For heaven's sake, self, you're on your 6th month!!

 

Earlier in class, our Dean (who was our professor, too), gave a little homily to the class. He said that we should study hard-er and that we should look at our dream of becoming a lawyer as our pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, that explains the quote I typed up there.. yes, up there! Every time our professors talk about their experiences as lawyers, their hardships, and how they want us to see reciting our lawyer's oath, makes me want to strive harder! I am not very bright, but I know I'm not stupid. I can make it here, I know I can. Our professors are just so inspiring.

 

I feel like I just quit law school when I dropped my Criminal Law 1 class for the reason that I cannot study anymore. I started to ask myself, what the hell did I do? Why did I raise the white flag without even trying? On second thought, this is a safe place for me right now. I always tell my friends to fight for our dreams, and we will be lawyers, too, in no time! We don't have to rush things because law school is not about the span of time you have spent in school, but on how much you have learned. Slowly but surely, as they say, is the best motto in law school.

 

I can sense that my facebook friends are annoyed already with all my rants about school, but please, you cannot blame me, I need to release my thoughts, or I will die! Ever had that feeling of being so exhausted and all you want to do is to shout it all out? Well, that's basically how I feel-- every f-ing day (and night). My rants may sometimes be too much, I know, I'm sorry, but that's just my way of releasing my stress. Uhh. Maybe you'll say.. "in social media?!" Oh well, I would answer you this way.. Yes, in social media. BECAUSE I need an outlet for everything, and I need someone who will understand me, and talk to me to help me out. It may look like I'm seeking attention, but what I'm looking for is comfort.

 

Today, I am thinking on how to be the best law student that I can be. I have to major in time management, and do a lot of juggling. The most important thing to do is.. I have to focus on my goal, my dream, and my journey on getting it done.

 

I will be one of the officers of the law of the land, one day.. SOMEDAY..

 

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined.

 

 

Dream big.. Dreams do come true,

Steffany Blair <3